Today was my beta.  I was a wreck.  I ended up having a whole lot of positive tests over the weekend, every day since last wednesday, in fact.

But I've had that happen before.  My first pregnancy (IVF #2, my first donor egg cycle) happened with home test positives, and by the time the blood test day came, my beta was falling.  I'll never forget the phone call from the clinic saying "Uh, your beta level is 10."

10.

10 is very, very close to not being pregnant and represents either a pregnancy that is very weak and not going to make it, or one that is already in its final fade.

Ugh.  That was my first pregnancy and I naively believed the home tests more than I should have.  It was also my first chemical pregnancy / miscarriage.

So today I was sweating out the hours / minutes until 1:00.  I know that lab results come in at 1:00 at my clinic, and they tend to call the "good news" people earlier.  If it's 1:30 and I haven't heard, that's a very bad sign. 

Every now and then they get results early, between 12 and 1.  It was a quiet day at my clinic today so I was hopeful...

When the phone rang at 12:52 I was hopeful.

And when she said my beta number I couldn't believe it: 500.