Today I had my last chemo treatment with the Adriamycin and Cytoxan drugs.  I have had a total of four treatments and now they are behind me.  But I have four to go—with a different drug called Taxol.  I'm worried about this one—it has nerve implications and other potential side effects.  My hands and feet may tingle or go numb.  I may notice changes in my nails.  I may feel aches in my joints and bones.  And what I dread most is that I may gain weight from the steroids I will take to prevent allergic reactions to Taxol.  But I hear nausea and vomiting are not very common with this drug so that's a plus.  

I worried a lot about the Adriamycin and Cytoxan too.  While I have felt some nausea (and may again this weekend), my experience has not been horrible.  I think some women have worse pregnancies than I've had with my first chemo experience.  So I will hope my side effects with Taxol will be minimal.  And if for some reason I cannot tolerate the drug, there is another drug that can be substituted (Taxotere).  Interestingly, I was told Taxotere was the drug I would have.  But my oncologist decided on Taxol instead because it's been around longer and has more research backing it.  

I didn't have my private room today.  But I did have my mom, Tracy and Jordan with me.  And I had two new visitors—my friend Bev and her baby Etta.  They brought me beautiful fresh pink tulips and helped take my mind off the chemotherapy.  Despite the ill feeling this disease still gives me, the gifts that come from cancer are endless.  Friendships are deeper.  Love is stronger.  And a walk on a beautiful day is truly appreciated.  

My mom, Jordan and I took a walk once I got home.  It was sunny and crisp and perfect.